I lived in two worlds..
The bigger and the smaller..
Sometimes, I am stuck in that small world where..
I felt myself is small..
I lost my confidence..
I lost my true aims..
I am chasing..
Keep on chasing..
A self that I didn't recognize..
I hate you..
I shouldn't hate you..
It was me who chose the wrong track..
I shouldn't know you..
I should't keep on looking at you..
You mess me up so much..
Can I hate you?
I don't like hating people..
I do reaction formation..
I care people I dislike..
I concern people I am jealous..
I cheer up people I am hurt..
the discomfort didn't go away..
I still feel the ache..
one day I can forget about you..
and leave your world..
I will try..
And will keep on trying..
I have something that you didn't have..
I have great things that you didn't have..
I should motivate myself that I am special in my own way..
And you are special in your own way..
You are not my enemy..
I don't wanna you to be..
But, I just can't be friends with you..
And I hope I don't know you..
Live your world as you wanna be..
All the best for you..
I hope you will find your happiness..
Stay well and be happy..
Reaction formation : A defense mechanism where people tends to react opposite on what they really feel.